Wow, so much has happened since I last blogged. I got pregnant, had a baby, my bigger baby started school, my hubby has been pursuing his masters...its been uber busy but I have loved so much about this part of my life even though I have been exhausted through a lot of it but its a good kind.

I can not chronologically update everything thats been going on so I figured I can just start with today. Like I said I am quite happy with my life but I know I could be happier....and this is not me being ungrateful because Lord knows how graceful, generous and good he has been to me. Just certain things weighing me down. My crosses.

My mother had a stroke in April and that has left me quite anxious, and nervous and just sad that I am not closer to her. In all honesty, I ask myself how much longer she will be with us and I cry like a little baby when I imagine she may never see her new grandbaby. But even there, there have been miracles at play that are most certain worth praising our Lord for. The stroke did not affect her mobility at all and she has made great strides in her speech in the last four or so months since her stroke. She says so much more now when I talk to her on the phone. But today when I called she said she can barely see. I sent some pictures of all of us and it made me sad to hear she could barely see us. That made me sad. Thats my mom, dad and my son Chilu in the middle in Zambia, October of 2011.

My prayer is that God please heal my mother, take care of her and I hope to see her, hug her, talk to her in person. I love you mommy.